“Just one tonight?” said the hostess.

“No, well – I’m meeting someone.” The woman quickly scanned the dining room, not knowing necessarily whom she was looking for, but not wanting to make it entirely obvious she was on a blind date.

“I don’t think he’s here yet though.”

“Alright, well let me get a table set up for you. Be right back,” said the waitress with a smile.

The woman looked around nervously, but kept a closed-lipped smile glued to her face. She was wearing jeans and a blouse with a delicate floral print of small yellow, orange and red flowers that faded to a pinkish-beige haze from a few feet away, and she still had on the pea coat she had worn as she walked from her car to the restaurant. Her hair was pulled back into a ponytail with a ridge of short bangs hanging down over her forehead in the front. She had fretted for forty five minutes before she left over what to do with her hair, and finally decided that this would be the easiest, and besides, she thought it made her look cute. She was wearing a thin layer of makeup, and bright red lipstick. It wasn’t too much, but it was more than she was used to wearing and she felt a little self-conscious.

“Follow me,” said the waitress, grabbing two menus and leading the woman toward an empty table.

The waitress laid out the two menus, and the woman sat down, choosing the seat that was facing toward the front door so she could watch as people came in. She set an orange rose down on the table, trying to make it inconspicuous but still visible. She had told her date on the phone the night before to “just look for the woman with the orange rose. That’s me!” She slid her coat off and draped it over the back of her chair. She picked up the menu and studied it, although her focus kept drifting over the top toward the door.

The waitress came back with a basket of bread and a small bowl of olive oil with a globule of balsamic vinegar suspended in the middle.

“Can I start you off with something to drink?”

“I’ll have a glass of the Sauvignon Blanc,” said the woman.

She looked down at her cell phone, which was sitting on the table next to the rose. She tapped the screen to illuminate it. 7:05. They had agreed to meet at 7:00, but she figured he was probably just running a little late. Anyway, she thought, it was good that she got there first. That would give her time to sip her wine and smooth over her nerves.

She drank her wine slowly, raising it to her lips in carefully timed intervals so as to make herself look occupied. She looked out the broad windows that ran across the front of the restaurant and watched cars going by, waiting to see if one would stop. Of course, she told herself, he might not being able to find parking near the restaurant, so she also kept an eye on the sidewalk, waiting to see if one of the figures that came into focus from the distance could be her date. A car pulled up across the street from the restaurant, but a woman got out and walked into the gas station on the corner. She didn’t see anyone coming down the sidewalk, and picked up the menu again. A watched pot…

She looked at the menu and ran through each section quickly. She passed over each item without really taking any of them in. She was too nervous still to focus. She took a few more sips of wine. Her glass was half full now and she felt a little more at ease. She looked at her phone again. 7:15. She checked her call log, making sure that she hadn’t missed anything. There was nothing new though; just a phone call from a friend earlier that evening, whom she had consulted about what to wear, and the call from her date the night before when they finalized plans for dinner.

The waitress came back around.“Are you ready to order yet?”

“No, I’m going to wait for my friend to get here, thanks,” she said with a smile, trying to look confident. It was 7:20. He must be stuck in traffic. Maybe he can’t find the place. But you’d think he would at least call.

The woman looked around the restaurant at the other customers. About half were couples. All of them looked like they thought they were the only ones there, intently leaning over the table toward each other, their eyes locked as they slurped noodles like Lady and the Tramp. She looked toward the door again, thinking that’ll be me in just a few minutes. He has to show up soon. By 7:30 he would be inexcusably late, but he was still safely in the realm of the absent minded for a few minutes. She fiddled with the rose, thinking maybe it was too hidden and he just hadn’t spotted her.

The front door opened and her head shot up. She looked off into the distance just past the foyer, and in her peripheral made out the shape of a man. She casually let her gaze shift to door. The man looked a little younger than the person she was expecting, but she didn’t mind. He was handsome, well dressed. She recalled the voice she had heard on the phone and thought it could fit him. He said something to the hostess, and she looked out to the dining room. The woman couldn’t tell for sure, but she thought she looked at her table. She said something to him, then walked away for a moment. Behind him the door opened again. An older couple and a younger woman walked in. The younger woman slid her arm into the man’s. She said something and they all laughed.

The woman looked back out the window and took another sip of her wine. The glass was almost empty now, and its effect was slowly turning from confidence boosting to numbing. She checked her phone again. 7:32. She sighed and drained the glass of wine. She looked back outside. It was getting darker, and the window was starting to show more of her reflection than the people outside. She looked pretty, she thought. Everything else looked out of place though – the empty wine glass, the flickering candle, and the chair across from her still pushed all the way in with the menu in front of it untouched. She looked back to the dining room. It was getting too dark out to see anything anyway.

The waitress came back again. “Do you want to start with an appetizer while you’re waiting?” she asked.

The woman could tell the waitress knew what was going on, but appreciated her pretending not to know. She had been there for almost half an hour already and was starting to feel uncomfortable sitting there with only her glass of wine, so she went ahead and ordered. She hadn’t even thought about what she wanted, and ordered the first thing on the menu she saw. “I’ll have another glass of wine too,” she said, motioning to the empty one on the table.

“I’ll be right back with that,” said the waitress as she whisked the glass off the table and walked away.

The woman looked back at her phone, but looked away quickly, not even wanting to see what time it was. She picked up the rose and smelled it, looked at it skeptically, and set it back down on the table. She had stopped at a florist on the way to the restaurant and bought it. Orange roses were her favorite, and the scent had filled her car, wafting up from the passenger seat where it laid next to her.

The waitress brought another glass of wine, and set it down. “Thanks,” said the woman.

She still thought he might show up. Maybe he was running late, and in his hurry to leave the house, had forgotten his cell phone. He could have been out of the house all day and his phone had died, and he hadn’t had time to go home and charge it before he came. Who am I kidding, she thought, taking another sip of wine. He’s not coming.

The waitress had left the other menu on the table so that at least it would look like someone else might be coming. The woman wished she hadn’t. Now it just sat there staring back at her, a feeble stand in for the man she had thought was going to be there. She felt herself starting to get a little drunk as she kept nursing her wine. She hadn’t even touched the bread. She wanted to keep drinking, but figured she should slow down if she still had to drive home.

Her food arrived quickly. She took a bite, but the anxiety brewing in her stomach spread up into her mouth making the food tasteless. She wasn’t even hungry at this point anyway. She tried taking a few more bites but the last thing she wanted to do was sit there at the table eating alone, the menu across from her and the rose next to her phone mocking her solitude. She flagged down the waitress next time she came around.

“I’m just going to take the rest of this to go.”

“Sure thing,” said the waitress. “Let me box this up for you and I’ll bring you the check.”

The woman finished her wine. She looked at her phone again. No missed calls, but she had a text message. She opened it – it was from her friend whom she had asked for advice earlier. “How’s the date going??” She hit ignore and set the phone back down. She reached around and pulled her coat off the back of the seat and put it on. The waitress brought the check and her box and she signed the receipt. She got up, grabbed the box and walked quickly toward the front door, trying not to look like she was rushing to get out.

The waitress grabbed the empty wine glass and napkin from the table. She spotted the rose, and looked up to see the woman walking toward the door. She was about to yell to the woman that she had forgotten it, but she was already outside. She picked it up and smelled it. It looked fresh, and it was a beautiful deep orange color. She took it along with the rest of the things from the table and went back to the servers’ station just behind the door that led to the kitchen. She stuck it in a glass that was filled with pens and took another whiff before grabbing one of the pens, picking up another check, and going back out to the dining room.